In the past I have identified with Robert Picardo who played the doctor on Star Trek Voyager.  I can’t remember all my defined reasons why … but thought in the Star Trek world - that is who I would be.

The Doctor from Star Trek Voyager

After some thought and in light of my health problems however I think I’ll have to go with being Avery Brooks, Captain Sisko from Star Trek Deep Space Nine.

The Commander of DS9, Sisko

Okay…maybe it’s Sisko’s voice.  Wow, wouldn’t I be cool if I sounded like that.

I bet he can run a lot faster then I can.  He probably is over all in better health and has a lot more vigor.  Of course…he would have to make the move into Science and Engineering if I were to gain possession of his DNA.  No more Star Ships and Baseball for you Mr.

Today I did have a small coffee from Starbucks.  It was tiny but yummy.  It’s been my first sugar faux pas in two weeks.  Which I think is pretty good but the doc says I need to lose weight.  How in the hell does one lose weight with diabetes?  I LOOK at food and gain ten pounds.  I drink water and gain and I seem to be hungry constantly.  I’m naturally a skinny person so its doubly frustrating.

Anyway - it might be a moot point because the biopsy didn’t go so well.  They had to take more tissue then initially planned on and I had all the negative attributes of having cancer including some malformed blood vessels.

Everyone fights cancer a different way, but everyone fights.  Healthy people like to think that they don’t — because then they can say to themselves….well, if it were me - I would fight or they discount any chance of getting cancer - they’re too tough.

People fight via chemo, via working out extra, dietary changes like Gerson’s method, Vitamin C treatment, prayer circles and faith changes….but you and I know, we both know, too many people who have lost that fight right?  Unless you live under a rock you know SOMEONE who has died of cancer.

I won’t find out for sure anything for a little bit - the biopsies went to lab.

People have their own kind of talismans against evil.  One of my friends says if you don’t believe in cancer it can’t kill you.  (Which is why I refuse to believe in car wrecks….)

Anyway - I guess I’ll find out more when the biopsies come back.

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