Mt.St.Helens

This weekend I went to Mt.St.Helens and struggled up and around a hiking path - but it defeated me.  I was pretty dehydrated.  I think if given 10 degrees cooler, some cloud cover and WATER in my backpack I probably could have made it given an unlimited amount of time.  Being that I had the runs, no water and it was over 90 - I was doomed to failure. ;-P

This week I went to the doctors again and they had some good news.  The cancer stuff isn’t all that bad and can be removed easily and maybe permanently.  I’ll have to go in for yearly screenings but once it’s gone it should probably stay that way.  *fingers crossed.

I still don’t know what’s wrong with my health but I did feel better today at any rate.  It kinda comes and goes.  I was listening to a report about how Asperger/Autism people have trouble with Glutathione/L-Glutamine (file under: Ooooh’ tell me about it!!!)  It has taken a lot of supplementing with L-Glutamine to build back my intestinal tract so that I can just digest basic food again.

More and more with autistic patients and people with nutritional health related illnesses they are finding NOT vitamins but Amino Acids hold the key.  I had adult onset acne until I started supplementing L-Lysine.

A lot of athletes and active people will suddenly develop acne, get hair loss and digestive ailments.  I think this is probably what happened to my health…

a.) I worked out everyday for at least an hour and a half triggering adrenaline release.

b.) Because my blood sugar was poorly controlled, I ate crap food and skipped meals all the time I had to have adrenaline actively releasing sugar stores in my body as well.

c.) I went through a divorce, move, remarried, new highly stressful job within a year. More adrenal fatigue.  My diet actually got even worse because by this time I couldn’t digest fruits and vegetables anymore at all.  I couldn’t have ANY dairy (not even a smidgen) and just about anything I ate made me ill.  I couldn’t sleep and relied on super powerful sleep aids - without them I could stay awake for days at a time thanks to the surge of adrenaline.

d.) Because of working out all the time my body was robbing protein anywhere it could get it to support my muscles.  I was pretty much a vegetarian and meat I ate wasn’t digesting, I had no milk in my diet and just an occasional egg.

e.) I was so fatigued that to get through my work day I started taking ‘Green Tea’ Energy supplements.  Drinking 32oz. Cokes and eating chocolate.   The Green tea was an energy boost but eventually burned out my adrenal glands even worse (which is hard to believe was possible). Partly I needed a ‘wake up’ pill because my sleep aids were so powerful and didn’t wear off for about 12-14 hours.

f.) By the time I left my job in October I was sleeping sometimes days at a time from fatigue (which I don’t recall every well) - my memory was shot.  I was having seizures and neurological problems.  I couldn’t focus and was ‘offline’.  My memory and brain still haven’t fully recovered.  I kinda thought I was going to die around that time and I wasn’t sure I even cared.

g.) In October I discovered Intestinew and L-Glutamine and within 20 minutes of taking it felt better.  It was a bit miraculous - but if taken too long especially in combination with anything calcium it caused my joints to hurt and become arthritic.  I then discovered L-Lysine for my acne.  During the two years I was sick I spent THOUSANDS of dollars on supplements and doctors trying to find the problem.

Final thoughts:

I have had serious stomach/digestive issues since I was born.  Most of my friends have dealt with me getting sick in their presence at least once.

I had trouble with building muscle and getting the protein building blocks from the food I ate but didn’t know it, and am sensitive to adrenaline.  I probably have one or two other digestive issues I don’t even know about (just found out I can’t ‘handle’ eating cane sugar which I didn’t know before) still but anyway… Without the building repair blocks my bodily systems including the brain started to break down.  Well - that’s what I suspect is wrong with my health. It kinda sounds simple wrote out like that and silly.

I’m having a bad reaction to something in my supplements so for now they’re banished.

Sew What, I’m Still a Rockstar

I have a new project - I’m learning how to sew.  I’m designing and making garments to wear.  :-)

I hate the clothes in my closet.  I don’t like how ANYTHING fits me now and I’m still recovering/changing daily.  I don’t want to buy new clothes that won’t fit in a month or don’t fit my body right.  I have all sorts of designs in my head for what would, “really look cool” — and I’ve decided to learn to sew in order to make them.

I’m starting with getting a Serger which is a sewing machine that transforms into a giant robot with lasers.  Not really, but it is very cool.

I also want to get back to reading.  I haven’t read anything for about a week since the Biopsy and I got side tracked with health crap again.  This has been very stressful.  From now on I’m not going to view stress as a ‘necessary’ comes with the territory of life event.  I’m going to view stress as destructively evil to be avoided at all costs and meditated away whenever possible.

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